Past and Present

Well it that time of year and the weather is changing and getting cooler, my kind of weather, mind you I don’t like it freezing cold like were two of my favourite people live. Only problem it makes for chronic back and neck pain, my doctor to the rescue. The meds he gave me should I hope help a lot. Moving along bible studies going well I,m really enjoying do this because it relaxes me no end. Some may not understand but we all need something or someone to turn to. Well I feel better with my bible and studies.

I don’t have a friend close by to discuss problems and some people just don’t want to know. So I get comforted by reading and listening to a bible session online. I have of late been doing My Heritage and it gets very interesting to do. But so far it all on my husband relations and ancestors, I hope something from my side in the near future when I get my DNA results back, that be in four weeks time they tell me. I cant wait.

I,am also into Astrology and I have contacted the hospital were I was born and spoke to the records department and they sent forms out for me to prove who I am. I filled out forms and posted them of, now the waiting game begins. I cant wait to get the information on what I need so I get my time of birth, then I can do more research with Astrology, without time of birth you cannot get exact reports done. The Art Of Patience now.

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The Change

Finally yes finally I’m feeling better in myself, Yes one due to medication sorted and working and making me feel better in myself.
But the main thing making me feel better, happier is my faith.

Since I returned back to my faith slowly I started to feel different. It did not happen quickly, but as days went by I just had a increase of happiness inside me.

I know two close friends will be happy about this. They have prayed for this for a very long time. Plus I know a dear friend that passed away just over a year now she knew I had the faith in me. But I just could not admit it at the time.

I say thankyou to my dear friends overseas and thankyou to a friend that watches over me like my Mother does. Plus I think I had the Faith in me because of the wanting for a Bible. I have always since I was a little girl wanted to have my very own Bible. No one but myself and the lord knew about this.

When I was young and did go to Church I always had to borrow a Bible for Sunday School Studies this I did love, as well as to learn the Bible and attend Church weekly. We had fun in Sunday School it was not thrown down our throats to learn the Scripture. It was done in a very enjoyable way.

Well back to borrowing the Bible was hard, I felt different everyone had one but me. But the Minister always lent me one long as I took care of it.
I don’t know what happen but one Sunday School day it stopped suddenly, we found out one Christmas and we all were sad.

It was not till a later date we found out the backup minister died suddenly and it hurt us all and we all missed him. Not many of us went to Church after that. We found the Ministers message in the Church was to hard to follow. So I quietly put the Bible back on the Ministers desk. I never went to Church again after that day.

We were told how bad we are by our grandmother for not attending church, but she never set foot in a church unless it was a funeral.
Anyway life is better now I’m following in the right direction, and I have to say when I told my doctors he was really happy, he said I needed this and I agreed.
Yes I still have health problems that course me to have pain, but I’m able to handle it by reading my Bible doing my Bible Studies and Faith, Trust, and Belief by putting my life in The Lord Jesus Christ hands.

 

Feeling Lost

Have you ever felt lost in your own home. Not knowing what to do or how to do it. The feeling that all you have done in the past was a complete waste of your life. Yes ok you enjoyed some things. But were did it get you.
You only proved to people from the past what your really worth.
I explain! I was forever told no matter were I was or what I was doing my life would be a case of being a Wife, Mother, Housecleaner, Child raiser. With no other future ahead of you to gain a name for oneself.

Oh yes I did Certificates in the time I was a mother and even tried working the fields in which I gain certificates. But in some cases I could not bring myself to work fast like a robot and have no feelings for what I’m doing. That was not me in that particular job. I loved that kind of work, but rushing the things I had to do showed I had no respect for the people I was helping. Sticking to a time line all the time. In there eyes the people was just numbers, you did your job and moved on. Like that all day. I cannot working in that kind of situation.

There was only two jobs I really love working with Children and the Ageing Adults. They need more attention than what was given to them.
After all that I have done and tried to achieve in my life is all waisted and a pure waste of time. Well that’s what it feels like to me now.
Now I at a road of my family looking after them, with nothing in site to look forward too.

These days I put all my trust and Faith and Love in the Lord Jesus Christ.
Only he knows my future.

 

Recently

The last time l saw my Doctor , he agreed l could finish up on my Depression medication. He believes from what he has seen in me a great improvement in health.

He know puts it as Anziety Stress and will just check up on me in couple of weeks. Well l see him on Monday and one thing even tho he watches how l look and act. I,m only there for general Asthma checkup The Asthma has been bad with the constant changing of the weather.

But just last couple days Asthma had no been to bad. I have to admit l used medication in my cuboard that is somewhat out of date, but l was sure l still had bottle of up to date there when l spoke to my doctor.

Doing the wrong thing has not effected my health any that l know or feel. But l will on the ther ha and get rid of the old medication and let my doctor know of what l did for l am a honest person.

This brings me up to date on my health, last time l weighed myself l was between 64 &65 kg in weight this is not giving me any concern,plus my doctor has said nothing to the fact that he is worried about it.

 

 

Hi There

Sorry not been on here of late, things have been getting to me lately. I have been listening to a few seminars and studying a really great mans book by Andy Shaw. The book is called Creating A Bug Free Mind. The Secret To Progress. Very Helpful Book. The Web address is http://www.ABUGFREEMIND.COM.

 

 

This book covers all areas of problems you could possibly having whether work related or Home,  etc. I should have finished it long while ago. But there is so many chapters I read over a few times. Because they were related with a lot of my problems.

 

Progress 2017

Well it has been a long time since l added a weight update. But loosing weight is not an easy process.

Well l am saying l am  happy with the weight l have lost. I am now 65Kgs and it is staying stable on that weight.

l have to say l was 80kg at the beginning of 2016. I have to admit this loss of weight is not all due to watching the food  l have eaten.

l have suffered Depression for many years a friend of mine would understand what l was like before l got help.

With Depression your weight will slide one way or the other. You will either lose the   weight or you will end up with a binge eating problem to try cover how you feel.

At present l am getting weaned of the medication l was on because l was showing no signs of improvement. The only is the side effects l am having a few now and the strain of the brain playing games with you does not help you.

Anyway my weight loss l say is 99% the Depression. One  thing l must say you just cannot win with medication,you get side effects going on the Meds and going of it Is

a choice you need to make. Are you strong enough to decide whether you can handle this on your own, or trust your doctor in his choice of medication.

The choice In medication when you have a (Mental Health Problem) oh l cannot stand there term Mental Health. Any way not all up to the local doctor if your doctors see’s you need extra help he may call in a Counsellor or Psychologist or Psychiatrist..

well as you see I went off tract here but losing weight or gaining weight there could be more to it.  l will blog soon.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

27/7/2015

Well it was weigh in day. The dietician still working hard to get me of cows milk and sugarine tablets but not successful. She is more than happy with the weight loss. Today weighed in a 75.75. the goal the dietitian and Doctor wants is me down to 68kgs. I cannot see a problem the way i,m going. The weather good and not hot so I should lose it all well before summer. I,m very happy with what I,m achieving Type more 28/8/2015.